A DESIRE!!

"Have you ever kissed a girl?"
I was stunned.!!The question had everything which every bollywood movie desperately seeks that is "masala".The very nonchalance with which she asked it was striking."So, tell me have u ?".I was taken aback by her swiftness.Was this a blow on my oblivious timid guts or what was she thinking,was she in a mood to hear a self inflated male who does nothing else than to boast whenever tried by circumstances and too specially when created by his nemesis in nature.Haven't she heard of "typical male ego" or more common "MCP".Or were i too vulnerable or transparent that she could even look through me and easily sensed that i have never ever felt the smooth skin of a lady ,leave alone a kiss.

But i had to tackle it,the onus was on me.The shoulders were burdened with expectations and i knew many eyes were watching me and somewhere not very far someone was listening me as i was pretty sure that i m not the alone flag bearer of this unfortunate clan,there would be many others who still haven't have got the opportunity to feel those beautiful lips of a girl,i guess the best feature in them but who am i to pass that judgment i m still among the have nots.Some would be like me who accepts this grotesque truth without any shame and some would be those boisterous brats and so called studs who never admits that he still is a minor in that regard.

The question left me stranded.I felt the thrust and i said "yes,many times".What else would have i said.Do u expect me to commit the felony of accepting my timid guts in front of her.Well i know that the major proportion of urban English speaking young generation looses its virginity,the most sacrosanct word after sex,well before they are 18.But,but.....well whatever,i shud'nt crib and give baseless reasons.

I accept that i don't have the guts to touch her,feel her and make cute puppy eyes to seduce her and then get hold of those pulpy lips,i m a "fattu"the slang used by today's hip hop gen next.Well i have had the chances to do it but phew!!!i disappoint every time!!.Actually i live in a utopia believing that the girl would herself take the initiative,thinking that after getting "charmed" she would step forward and lock her lips with me.......Well well too much imagination!!!

Surely need a superwoman.Is there anybody out there wanting to help me.??