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An Assault

“The important thing is not the action done but the reaction it evokes.”

These very lines marked the beginning of the special section of last Sunday’s Hindustan Times. The section tried to cover all aspects relating to the one of the worst tragedies this nation has seen in recent times. The commentator was Amitav Ghosh, no need to put adjectives about him, made complete sense of the current situation prevailing in Mumbai and as well in other parts in a complete measured way. His write up was followed by many fine literary pieces each one stirring emotions among the readers. The fancy and eye catching headlines were worth of their words. But I not here to do a publicity of Hindustan Times. The issue, here at concern, is quite grave and much above the catchy print lines.

The beautiful Wednesday evening was quite soothing for many elite Indians and international visitors dining at THE TAJ, overlooking the beautiful Arabian Sea.

The clattering sounds, outside TAJ that evoked quite mixed responses some as obvious as celebrations of having won a cricket match, were the last sounds for many people.

The audacious and sophisticated attacks at Mumbai not only outsmart the security establishments but also shook the whole polity and national mood. It was the brave efforts of the NSG commandos who kept the true Mumbai spirit alive which has also started to dim anyway. This is the 8^th attack on an Indian city in this calendar year itself, defying all the so called claimed robust security checks. So the million dollar question is now what shall we do as a nation.

The attack has evoked quite a strong reactions from public, politicians and as well as the international media. The attack has once again evoked the suppressed rage simmering within the “majority” against the “minority” even though this time there has not been any communal backlash. I would just concentrate on this one aspect of the whole big picture. Friends around me who hail from the dominant majority clans are of the view that the time has come to countervail and teach the “community” a fitting answer. They argue that why does every time an attack has a perpetrator hailing from the “community”.

This is quite true but half true can’t be hailed as complete truth. A deed of certain fanatics can’t be hailed as an attribute of the whole group. A major point to be noted here is that the history of Indian Moslems is quite different from the Islamic world outside. They came here as invaders but have settled here quite stupendously completely embracing the Indian culture (which in itself is an another ambiguous topic to be discussed as the variety is mind boggling to be found in this country, no culture, language, religion, caste can be tagged under the group “majority”). They have been completely accepted as “the sons of the soil” over the centuries.

The weakness lies in the leadership of this country, the politicians who for their self seeing interests have often staked this country. With the economic boom this country has witnessed over the last 2 decades, the only basis of distinction would have to be as “haves” and “have nots” and nothing else. There is a vast population who has stood as a mere audience amidst these “India shining” slogans. The boom has bypassed them with the benefits just percolating to a ridiculous 23% Indians.

The time has come when we rise above these petty machinations employed by our leaders and let not be divided once again on issues which ,I think, are very peripheral to our existence. Let there be riots and agitations for education, proper sanitation facilities, better living conditions and for our right to exist as honorable individuals rather than on who worship which form of god. The world is looking towards us, expecting something out of us. Let us grab this opportunity to show our real mettle. But how could it be possible in a state vulnerable and parochial like us.

A question that demands an answer and an immediate action..

A DESIRE!!

"Have you ever kissed a girl?"
I was stunned.!!The question had everything which every bollywood movie desperately seeks that is "masala".The very nonchalance with which she asked it was striking."So, tell me have u ?".I was taken aback by her swiftness.Was this a blow on my oblivious timid guts or what was she thinking,was she in a mood to hear a self inflated male who does nothing else than to boast whenever tried by circumstances and too specially when created by his nemesis in nature.Haven't she heard of "typical male ego" or more common "MCP".Or were i too vulnerable or transparent that she could even look through me and easily sensed that i have never ever felt the smooth skin of a lady ,leave alone a kiss.

But i had to tackle it,the onus was on me.The shoulders were burdened with expectations and i knew many eyes were watching me and somewhere not very far someone was listening me as i was pretty sure that i m not the alone flag bearer of this unfortunate clan,there would be many others who still haven't have got the opportunity to feel those beautiful lips of a girl,i guess the best feature in them but who am i to pass that judgment i m still among the have nots.Some would be like me who accepts this grotesque truth without any shame and some would be those boisterous brats and so called studs who never admits that he still is a minor in that regard.

The question left me stranded.I felt the thrust and i said "yes,many times".What else would have i said.Do u expect me to commit the felony of accepting my timid guts in front of her.Well i know that the major proportion of urban English speaking young generation looses its virginity,the most sacrosanct word after sex,well before they are 18.But,but.....well whatever,i shud'nt crib and give baseless reasons.

I accept that i don't have the guts to touch her,feel her and make cute puppy eyes to seduce her and then get hold of those pulpy lips,i m a "fattu"the slang used by today's hip hop gen next.Well i have had the chances to do it but phew!!!i disappoint every time!!.Actually i live in a utopia believing that the girl would herself take the initiative,thinking that after getting "charmed" she would step forward and lock her lips with me.......Well well too much imagination!!!

Surely need a superwoman.Is there anybody out there wanting to help me.??

yeh hai meri kahani..........

These are days when i sincerely think about our prospective,in particular my prospective.These are hours when i ponder about how i should i spend the next minute.The only solace i get is that the suffering is not just within me but it sprawls to others as well,hence the use of word 'we'.These are tough times,for everyone.Even the beloved bear and bull have not been spared.The urge to be the cynosure beckons us but ,but alas!!

I left my college with a mixed bag of emotions.The sense of belonging was being taken away from me,but on its other side there was the optimism,a new world waiting for me with its exciting features,the pride and a euphoria to stand there with a armor to withstand the vagaries of life.The armor was our college's name and the gladiator was this petite creature(petite by the weight of expectations).The first two months were spent in arrogance and leisure.The third month brought me to the shores of uninhabited island,like a fetus inside womb with everything but the umbilical cord.Strange,no,bizarre but yes plausible yet quite critical.My previous mother(ITBHU) left me unwillingly coz she has been forced by the constitution to embark its child in every four years to uncharted territories.But she took a great care and handed over me to a new mother with an assurance that she would foster me till i become old enough to sail on my own.But my new mother(cognizant)dint approve me.The pundits say it wasn't her fault but she was haplessly marred by the vicissitudes of the great grand mother,the free market.She never called me,dint care for me and here i was left on to the shores of the virgin island.
The armor dint fail,no it would never but the gladiator was made weak by the vagaries above said. He was not just ready.

Here i am in the lap of my new mother listening her lullabies.She adopted me when i was a destitute ,she promised to nurture me when i needed it most.And yes she is living up to her expectations but alas human race is never content and always looking for more.In the annals of history we tend to forget our personal past.

So i wonder about my prospective,what i shall do.

Clues do come but making me more clueless. i dont know!!!!

conception and it's pitfalls..

the conception of clarity in a human mind is what that,unfortunately is absent in the professors' faculties of the university. professor G for example has an absent-mindedness coupled with muddled thoughts-conceiving brain and therefore is an epitome of a not-too-brilliant,average,academic indian professor. clarity in thought and speech is achieved when the mind participates relentlessly in a plethora of argumentative discussions with the critique side of the argument. a general clarity of mind ,which escapes the untrained mind,is more of an intuitive grasp of the distinction in thought processes which can be grasped as for and against an argument. this makes up the associated clearness of mind, which is admired in the gem-of-speakers and great minds.and as a note,i recall that once,i had arrived at juncture in my thought process, which proved that intuitiveness is more important and exact than intelligence. we ,the human species,that succeeded in burdening the intuitive side of the mind ,with heay and loopy logic that centers on dividing knowledge into little,comprehensive chunks and thus train the mind to miss the holistic grasp of the things. this is where we fall short of our companions,the pther animal species, which show an intuition for danger and which conspicuously escape the trained human mind.

I'm in Hyderabad

I am in Hyderabad these days.

My arrival here didn't change much. Some jerk in Bangladesh did try to warn the people of Hyderabad of my presence my exploding a bomb in Mecca Masjid here. But no one really took notice. Nevermind, some day I myself will do a press conference and reveal my presence.

Mehta sahib aur Talwar Miyan - Janaab inki baat hi kuch aur hai

Mehta Sahib aajkal bahut padh rahein hain......padhai ke keede ne sab ko kaata hua hai aajkal, par mehta sahib ko lagta hai bada hi jor ka kaata hai. Bechare Talwar miyan bhi usi keede ke prakop mein aane ke baad disturbed dikh rahein hain. Bhagwaan en dono bhale navyuvkon ko bachaye.